how to be a man

If you want to be a man, be heart-stabbed. 

Be betrayed and disgraced. 

Be earnest and eager and wager it all on.

Get up. Get sober. Get non-depressed. You will always be depressed.  You will always fail. You are Man. You are your struggle. Remember that peace is also death. Heaven and hell are you in stasis. While you got a day, you got a shot. 

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the door knocks

At some point the door knocks.

You didn't expect it to, it wasn't invited.

But the door knocks.

You answer. 

You don't.

it doesn't matter.

The door knocks and enters in whatever fresh hell and you are ready or not it's not always up to you you had plans big ones and it had nothing to knocking. You were the one in control. You were the one who knocked. Now it knocks for thee.

K's Dugout on Foster you can't miss it

Midday (let's be honest 930am Thursday)

Men wearing caps. Not talking. Looking. Thinking. 

I could ask what but it's too soon. 

We like old reruns of the Price is Right. Bob Barker had dyed hair. He looks great and kisses everyone back when you could. 

We play along. Bet $5 on the kitchen thingy.  It's fun. We all play with the contestants.  It's weird outside but this is fun.

Robby gave me my earnings of $20 for guessing the 1988 contestant to win. it's just G&T money, I drink another hour

water elemental attacks father halo

Father halo mistakes a bidet for a tiny water elemental that bites him in the ass. It's a new restaurant and he's there with espectro. 

see above

Perhaps we made a wrong turn

And we are so sure we are right

And so vain and so supported in that vanity

That we are right. 

But if we were wicked

Shallow, wrong, and human

Instead of the well-educated paragon of wisdom we were supported to believe

Maybe we still are right.

A heroic tragedy is where the hero triumphs but everyone is dead. 

And doesn't everyone want to be heroic?

Fatherhood

So to be a father, they say that its no longer about you. It is about your son and daughter. But I've found that truism hollow. Men without goals or passion default for their life's meaning to the base conceit of continuity in their bloodline. But my bloodline is old; it's recorded history filled with warriors, kings, petty rulers, farmers, and refugees. It is clear that we are at the ebb of our glory. We rise,  generation by generation, back to the heights we onced ruled. I am one step back to that glory, I am the unwritten and unlauded  generation that will grimly push us back to heights. The best of family will come back, and will be resplendent.

Finding Jack Roar Spearhand

Beyond the wastelands of the Empire's territiry, Espectro and Father Halo traveled for days through the rugged steppes in the Cragsmen frontiers. Civilization, with all its vice and comforts ceased here.

Summary:

Espectro and Fathet Halo seek out their comrade Jackroar Spearhand, only to find tgat he has retired from the adventuring life to run his own woodworking enterprise. The trio go back and forth, the conversation getting heated.

A day later an assassin in the market nearly kills Father Halo. The two friends rush tonthe rescue and save his life. Returning to Jack's woodwork shop they find the building ablazed with fire. It appears that the assasins are targeting the trio. That said, it looks odd the Espectro was the only one nt targeted and there are clues that he might  might have a hand with the assasins and woodshop burning.